God destroyed my life only to rebuild it into something much better than what it was, and I found at the end of my struggle, that i was so much happier. - Father Rafael (something to that affect. it was in spanish)
how true that is. How can something better be made when the old thing is still there preventing a completely better structure from being put up? I see that so much in myself. I am no longer the person I used to be, and that's okay. I cant remain the same and expect to grow or learn or mature. Although their are so many uncertainties and question marks in my life, i believe that God will surely lead me to what i'm looking for and will accomplish much in me. I have learned very recently through a series of events although not so big, that i don't have to run and rush to find out what it is i'm waiting for, or push myself so hard all the time. I have to be more patient and calm my heart to listen for God's voice in every moment, in every second. I had made myself so busy with so many things to the point where i stopped and realized that i had become so numb to God's promptings. It took so much for HIM to make me stop and see what i was doing to myself. It's time to rebuild myself.. not revert into the person i may have been, but rather into a person better than who i was. Someone stronger and wiser, and more faithful. When i went to see the hermanas and padre yesterday, padre read me like an open book and told me i had to do 5 things:
1 be faithful. Faithful to God and his love and will.
2 be docile. Don't be so anxious to run somewhere.
3 be ready
4 be responsible
5 be (iforgot this one. Cynthia.. yoo have to remind what was the last one)
and they are things i definitely need to do.
YC5 squarepants!!!! Congrats to all you special people!!!
what a great experience. So much fun:
-a delerious phoebe
-running through the hallways with cherrie
-laughing till 3:30 in the morning
-lumpia up my nose and ears
-dave the hot mod
-i have gaseous emanations
- and so much more
It opened my eyes to many things. It taught me how to slow down and realize what was in myself that needed some fixin and changin.
so all in all i've been changed. | 
